Hey I have something to say here....umm ok maybe not

I am sitting here once again.  I have this feeling I can't get rid of, I feel like I have something important to say.  You have all read my attempts at writing, been subjected to my not so normal humor, and managed to navigate my grammar.  Since I have started this blog I have expressed things I didn’t know I had the ability too and learned things about people I may otherwise still be blind too. 

  I wake up each morning curious to what the day will bring me, what lessons I will be taught.  I tend look at things in a different light these days. The real meaning of a song, talking with my wife, (I mean really talking not just "how You doin") or trying to understand how I can make a difference.  When I joined the Air Force in December of 1995 I did not know that twelve years later I would be spilling blood and leaving tears in the sand of a foreign country.  I saw hope, change, and a chance to grow up.  I will be honest with you I did not join the military to defend my country but, I now have that feeling deep in my bones.  I believe in this country, freedom of speech, and the pursuit of happiness whatever form that may take for us. 

  Is what im doing here making a difference?  Only time, the quality of my children's lives, and the lives of those who we are living amongst and fighting with will tell.  I wish I had some profound new I idea or solution to benefit our society but I don’t. I am not a scholar or a General in command. In the grand scheme of things I guess I don’t have anything to say.  There are a few constants or sure things in my life.  The admiration and love I have for my wife who has taught me so much and gives me the strength to go on.  The hope my children will never have to experience what I have. I will gladly give my life for the protection of my wife,  my children, and yours. I guess when it comes down to it we all justify things in different ways.