She told me a secret...

As we sat on that bench in Hawaii so many years ago she told me a secret.  I am not sure what it was about me that made her confide in me but she did.  She sometimes teases me about forgetting a birthday or event.  I remember more than she knows.  I remember the feel of her hand in mine, the feel of her soft skin with the tear running down her face, The warmth and security of her arms around me.  I can even remember the smell in the air that night when I close my eyes. 

  I was asked the question tonight if I remember when I fell in love with my wife?  My answer was which time.  I have fallen in love with her many times.  The first time I saw her,  When we sat on that bench,  When she gave birth to my daughters.  I am amazed that I am still learning her inside and out.  Each time I learn something new I fall in love with her even more than the last time.  She has taught me many things.  To love, patience, understanding to name a few.  She has even taught me lessons that I did not want to learn but looking back am thankful she did.  I really don’t know if this is makes any sense to you but it does to me.           

  I have so many thoughts running through my mind right now I don’t think 100 blogs could hold them all. She is such a intricate person that sometimes I feel so simple in comparison.  As I sit here feeling the pain in my leg from the iron beam that fell on me today it is minuscule compared to the feelings of love and friendship that are running though my body and soul.  Sometimes I don’t know how to express myself in the right way.  I think writing down exactly what is on my mind at that exact moment has been working well for me lately.  I wish I could hold her hand, touch her face with that tear running down it and feel the emotions of that night again.  I felt special like we were the only two in the world.  I love you Jonette.